nównøis | EP1 • verses -- coming everywhere

on 30 April, the first puzzle piece of my LP will be released on every major platform and digital music store. i'm still keeping Bandcamp and this website as a special version of "verses", but from Thursday on, you can find the EP as one body of work: the first larger piece, the first fully self-created milestone of your favourite nównøis.

i won't lie: it makes me super excited, even though the EP has been out since 5 December (what the fuck happened with time btw??).

this EP has also been a test, a lesson, a challenge, a chance, and so much more. and even after making music for 25 years, it feels like throwing myself out for the wolves to munch on my underfed, weak body. do wolves need this at all? do you want to know more about the songs, the sound, the process, what's behind, the struggles, the passion, the lazy days... do you?

sharing our art is a massive and risky step, yet it can feel so natural. i never cared whether people can relate to my songs, or not. all i wanted was to express how i felt. back then, as nagyedi, i started receiving feedback that reminded me: people do relate. some even find emotional relief in my dark thoughts and weird beats, and if there's just one person i can help with my point of view on certain difficulties, i win. so do they.

social media plays a big part in how artists can increase visibility, and i noticed a certain trend: people seem to follow the strong, the loud, the colourful, the confident, while i'm trying to build a castle out of all the crap i've been through, and often feel like: wait, who cares about your weakest, most vulnerable moments??? who cares that once you needed a sentence that helped you held your shit together ("hold onto your dignity, say goodbye to your insecurity")? who cares that you have nothing to say to your parents -- cause they're from a whole different universe and that every time you visit your family, your anxiety peaks as you're surrounded by people who don't understand you, you little black sheep --, apart from that "i'm just watching the distance grow between us while i'm sitting next to you"? who cares that once you felt like your relationship with the father of your children has reached the lowest level possible, and it would be easier to be on your own with your kids ("rain falling down on me and i want you to trust in me cause i have grown, i can carry you alone")? who cares that sometimes even you get fed up with your own pain, and not using your voice sounds like the only way out of a place you are strongly rooted in ("dark tune"), and who cares that once you experienced physical pain that was so hard to handle that you just wanted to die, and years later, you accepted the fact: pain is a part of you, and will always be, but it's nice to build something beautiful from it, so you said: "i could try to save my own skin to decipher what's underneath"? who the fuck cares? and then i got to this point, and i already have an answer: YOU. you care. that's why you're reading this. that's why you're supporting me. not sure why exactly, but you help me. maybe to help you. maybe because you feel alone and we can be lonely together? maybe 'cause i'm stronger than it feels to me. i don't know. and i should not be crying now, but i am.

while i was suffering from a sore throat (still on, but getting better), i've done an English exam and Life in the UK test so i can soon become a British citizen. i talked to Brits about it and they mentioned how interesting it is that people cry at their naturalisation ceremony, while those who were born British (or any citizen), take things granted. on the way home i've had a loud thought on this after imagining my ceremony: we don't get touched and cry over getting something done. we cry because in that moment, we remember every painful event that led us there.

that's how i feel knowing my first EP -- EP1 • verses -- is out, and will be even outer this Thursday.

pre-save on spotify, amazon music, apple music, etc:

https://ffm.to/ep1-verses.OWE

as mentioned above, i'm keeping the Bandcamp and website EP special and added a really cool and surprising remix as a bonus track. so now there are 2 bonus tracks to the EP if you purchase it on BC. mho is one of my biggest supporters, and i think i can call him a friend too. he surprised me with this remix, and all i can say: the genre consists of 3 letters: d, n, and b listen to and support EP1 on Bandcamp: https://nownois.bandcamp.com/album/ep1-verses much love, nównøis